It's the end of a very weird day. It started at 6:00 am. I got up and got ready, thinking it would be a regular day at work, followed by working out and school stuff. Welp, by 9:30, I was leaving the company I belonged to for three years, angry and uncertain. Not knowing what else to do, I went to the next familiar place I spent the last three years: Utah valley University. As I was walking around the music building there, I ran into my long-time, dear ol' friend, Megan. She asked me what was new and I told her about my recent, jobless predicament.
"Kristine, don't be angry at the door that shut on you or you wont see all the other doors that have opened." Wow, Megan! Whatta woman. Here she was, living proof of that--now married and pregnant after years of fighting for a better life while serving, giving hugs and smiles along the way. Thanks, Meg.
So I went to work, quit being angry and started working to find those 'open doors.' I sent out emails, put out posts, talked to friends and put out the word that I want to have my dream job and be a full-timer in music. Thanks to no longer being chained to a desk eight hours a day, I got to babysit four of my favorite fifteen 'sobrinos'; I got to study opera singers' and composers' auditions and work on my own repertoire and compositions. It felt good to really be able to sit down and really spend quality time, engulfed with music. Pls, I got to sit and have lunch with My Spence (awe...).
I just checked my email. Someone would like to be taught vocal lesson. Looks like I'm stepping through another door. Today was an interesting day but I still worked, I still got paid for something and I got reminded of some very important things: 1) some things need to be let go to make room for something greater, 2) if you never give up, you cannot fail, 3) it's okay to cry but it's more effective to smile and get to work and 4) life is beautiful--the grass may be greener on the other side, but that doesn't mean you're not knee-deep in a flower bed. Yeah, I guess that's my point: life is good, even on days like today.
